Exodus 20:3- You shall have no other gods before me.
I’m a dreamer and an attainable goal setter. I spend a lot of time thinking about where I want to go and how I can get there. Then if I make it I go on to another goal, if I don’t I evaluate what’s going wrong. I really like that I’m this way. That I thrive off of productivity, efficiency and practicality while also taking into consideration my desires and my happiness is a trait that I’m very much at peace with. With that being said:
The future is an idol of mine. I can make it so once I obtain my goals I’ll be living a world of rainbows and sparkles. It never happens so I thirst for something else. I recently realized my life was a mess. I’m working a dead in job, not in college (which I desire), not involved in ministry, and I’m tired. Completely exhausted from running in circles at 1,000 miles per hour.
When God was crying, “Daughter, just come be with me.” I couldn’t hear because I was too focused on the future. “Be with me now. Right in this moment.” He would say, and I would be too distracted thinking about where I was going. I applied my thoughts to a Christian future. Local ministry opportunities I might be able to join, Bible studies I might become involved in, books I wanted to read. Good things, just not with completely right intentions, and I would justify them because they were “Godly” activities.
I’m learning that my current relationship with God in the moment is so much more fulfilling than the “the future” can be. The future relies solely on my strength, but living in a life with God means anything can happen because I’ll be relying on His strength. Walking with the Lord moment by moment that’s when a powerful life happens.
I applied to YWAM- something I NEVER thought I would do. But I’m not completely reliant on one way or another anymore. I was- but with the lesson(s!) He’s taught me just through the application/waiting process makes it so worth it and the outcome doesn’t even matter. Just pray that the answer is His way. The future may be an idol I am constantly fighting off, but I believe in the renewed mind (Romans 12:2). God bless.
“Life is a succession of lessons which must be lived to be understood.” -Helen Keller